The writing process can be quite tricky. Writing about it isn’t any easier. You often hear writers say things like “I have not written any new in quite some time” or simply “I have been having a dry spell, and I don’t know how long it will last”.
Writing about this dry-spell may offer a diagnosis on why the cogs in your brains aren’t tuning.
Having deadlines to meet during the MA made me question the existence of the writer’s block or dry-spells. Because whether I liked or not, wanted or not, I had to produce new work every month or so, so I was writing regularly. While the quality of the work is disputable, I wrote 6 new poems every tutorial.But now that deadlines are no longer threatening with me a whip, I am finding it difficult to write poetry again.
Could this “writer’s block” be natural and necessary part of the writing process?
I believe it is. And here’s why:
1-Not writing is painful. And allowing yourself the time and space to feel that pain of not being able to write is important to remind you why you write in the first place. A dry-spell makes you long for rain. Makes you appreciate it, look forward to it. And when it pours down, it always feels refreshing, healing, and promising.
2-Recharaging your creativity. The past two years were hectic. But by the end of the MA programme, I felt I had given everything I got. I consumed all my energy, knowledge, and experiences. Now when I think about writing, I feel like I no longer have any new ideas as if my data is erased and my mind is a blank slate. This creates a chance to recharge. I firmly believe in “when you aren’t writing, you should be reading”. Creative practitioners stress on how important it is to read the works of other creative practitioners. I write poetry, but I read everything. New perspectives, smart usage of language, energizing imaginations do exist in all forms of literature. It would be a shame to miss the opportunity to expose yourself to all these resources that would enrich your creativity. Keeping an open mind while reading is a key to becoming a better writer.
3-You don’t feel what you write is valuable. Of the two reasons I have mentioned this is the most destructive and most deliberate.Sometimes it’s not a writer’s block that’s keeping you from writing but it’s doubt and fear of rejection. The other two “phases” of not writing may eventually result with new writings. But this feeling of failure may kill your effort in its cradle.
Seeing your effort going down the drain makes you question if you are any good. Failing to see that your writing is taking you anywhere beyond a few likes on Instagram makes you wonder, what’s the point?
I try to remind myself that if I don’t write, no one cares. I’m the one at loss. And if I write, still no one cares but I end up doing something I truly love and care about.
For now I am letting these doubts consume me. I always see the danger in overconfidence rather than in the lack of it. My poems reflect the progression I make in life. I might be a mediocre poet for now but if I stop writing I may never know what I can become. This thought keeps me going even when I have just received the most recent rejection letter.
I enjoy writing about writing, because it helps me recapture the ups and downs of the writing process itself. And as I mentioned it’s like running a diagnosis on why you aren’t writing.
I am a poetry writer. I find it very difficult to say that I am a poet. After all I’ve never published a collection of poems. My poems haven’t appeared in famous poetry magazines or websites. The word poet for me is like buying your child size 5 while they are still 3. They will grow into it.
I am a poetry writer. I’m currently writing poems for my assignments. But I wrote my first poem in 2003 and since then I have not stopped. I’m not planning on stopping. When the deadlines stop, I hope I will still sit and write, or try to write.
I am a poetry writer. Sometimes I feel like I arrived to the party late. All the guests have left, all the food was served, and all the decorations were removed. They say that poetry is dead art. And sometimes it does feel frustrating that of all writings, I write the least popular, the least prestigious, and the least profitable. I sometimes do wish I wrote computer programs instead. But then I come to read a poem by Naomi Shihab Nye or watch Suheir Hammad performing one of her poems. I feel that something so powerful, poignant, and so moving can’t be dead. It fills me with this urge to write and write more, to think of what magic tricks words could perform, what messages it could deliver. I know that writing poetry probably won’t take me places. It is not the next big thing for me. But I know it’s THE thing for me.
I am a poetry writer. Sometimes I feel that I wasn’t even invited to the party, but I crashed it anyway. English isn’t my first language. My mother tongue is Arabic.
But my poems chose their own, English. I have loved English since I was 10. I learned it through English songs. Maybe that’s why my poems are in English. But this makes me want to place emphasis that my poems are in English, but they aren’t English. They are everything that I am; Muslim, Palestinian woman of color. This may make people take my poetry less seriously. But I have no interest writing poems like Wordsworth or even T.S Eliot. My poems are like my fingerprints. They distinguish me. They define me.
I am a poetry writer.
And I will keep writing poems; Crappy ones, mediocre ones, excellent ones.
I will probably keep writing poems that will be only published on my personal Facebook page.
I will probably keep writing poems that I only read and like.
I will probably keep writing poems that make me feel that I never want to write again.
I will probably keep writing poems just for the sake of it.