Poem about Gaza

Salamz all,

Today I’ve done something,I’ve not done in year and a half and it’s WRITING peoms.Before 2 years ago I didn’t know that I was able to write poems(or sth like that :S),I discovered this after listening to Outlandishs hit song “Look into my eyes” which is written by Palestinian girl,so I felt inspired and wrote a lot of poems like it now they are all gone,because I found out they were HORRIBLE so I stopped writing since a year and a half.Today I’ve read the idea of a song called “”Alle Veje Fører Til Malmö”,it’s a Danish song by Isam B (a member of Outlandish ).
The songs theme doesn’t relate to my poem but in a way it inspired me to express what I feel towards my one and only city,Especially that I’m accused by my friend that I don’t want to get the rewards from living here,because I said I wanted to travel for 2 years for a rehab (life sucks).So this poem will defend me:

Gaza is my city…is me
walls full of  graffiti
small streets full of kids
Yellow n Green ( Fatih and Hamas)
they match but they don’t meet
hard life full of life n dreams
mostly crash down by the reality
but hope of a better day is always here

Gaza is my city…is my home
we have been through a lot
the good n the bad
but the bad is more
your sea speaks stories are untold
and your sun shine is not like anywhere else
warm but still burns

Gaza is my city…is my heart
never forgot the boy who died in his fathers arms
full of contradiction
like a mom
lost her son but she’s thankful to God
full of faith
like dawn
the more gets darker, the more morning is close

I just Don’t want to give up, I just pray to keep standing tall
I know it’s hard for us to face it all
from inside and outside
everybody seems fighting us for a cause
but In Sha Allah we always hold on
for the paradise…for the day of freedom
is not far….not fat at all.

Your criticism means a lot to me,especially that I’ve not written any thing in a long time,I really hope you enjoy it…Spacail thanks to my dear friend Soha who was telling me that’s good,so thanks Se2se2

حاجات غير ضرورية

السلام عليكم
قبل ما ابدأ أتكلم عن شوية أشياء في بالي لازم أوجه شكر كبير على كلام حلو اتقال عن مدونتي فا شكرا جزيلا لعلوش…و هاى بوست بالعربي J
الناس اللي قرأت البوست تاعي عن “أول يوم في الجامعة” هههههههه كان أول يوم و من الواضح اني كنت هبلة جدا فالجامعة الاسلامية على الرغم من التعليم القوى فيها الا عليهم حركات بتخليك تكرها جدا أشياء صغيرة جدا جدا بقولها بعض المشرفات أو اللي بحاولوا يضبطوا الأمن و النظام و بعملوها بتخليك اتقول الإسلام مش هيك..
مع انه كلها أشياء ممكن انها اتكون غلط بس ما في ضرورة ايخلوك اتحس انك حشرة  أو وحدة تتطلع فيك نظرات استحقار..
هية قصة صارت مع بنات مش معي لأني أنا عبيطة قالوا تلبيسوش عبايات بقول حاضر و بنفذ في بنات بتقولها للست اللي عل باب (بتراقب البنات اللي لبسين جلباب بس مش ملتزمين بقواعده) اه و تاني يوم بتجي برضو “مخالفة” أنا عادي مش هاى مشكلتي عادي أنا عندي الجلباب بالعكس لأنها جامعة اسلامية فمنطقي انو يكون الحجاب و الجلباب ضروري ….
امبارح كنت قاعدة جنب بنات كان مع بنت فيهم موبايل و كانوا بتفرجوا على اشي مش عارفة ايش هوا بس أكيد ايشي عادي…اجت “أخت” بكل ما عندها من طاقة سلبية طلعتها عل بنات عنيها كانت بتخوف أنا لو كنت مكان البنات كان روحت أعيط اطلعت فيهم بكل استحقار و قلتلهم “سكري الجوال…عا ايش بتتفرجوا؟” بس البنات كانوا زى المتعودين أو مش مهتمين قالولها طيب..و مشيت…
أنا قلت في نفسي ليش هيك؟ حتى لو على ايش كانوا بشوفوا كان ممكن اتكون لطيفة و كووول ما في داعي للنظرات المخيفة…هدا الموقف و أشياء تانية خلتني أكره الجامعة و كل يوم بروح و برجع و أنا قرفانة و خصوصي انو لسا ما عندي صحبات  بس هاي مش مشكلة…
أصدقائي في الجامعة هوا موبايلي و شجرتي ..في عندي شجرة ما حد بقعد تحتها إلا أنا…من الساعة 1 لل 2 بكون عندي بريك و غالبا ما بلاقي حد أقعد معه فا بروح عل دكان اللي جنب الجامعة بشتري شبيس و كوكا كولا و بما انه الكولا بكل أنواعها الرديء و الجيد انقرض من غزة نتيجة للحصار و قرار حماس فا صرت اشتري “لبن أب” بطعم الخوخ و اللي كمان اشوى حينقرض برضو…الحياة تستمر بدون كوكاكولا!!
بعد ما أشتري السناك بروح تحت شجرتي بحط السماعات تعون الموبايل و بسمع الاربعة هدول:

Outlandish

The sound of reason
Sami Yusuf
Kareem Salama
و امبارح حملت فيديو كليبس أوتلاندش,هما هدول أصحابي في البريك.
و هى قصة الجامعة اللي صرت أكرها

هلأ دور الدلع أنا كتير بحب فرقة Outlandish و سامي يوسف و فرقةThe sound of reason و كريم سلامة  و يوم الأحد كانوا كلهم تحت سقف واحد في لندن,الشهم اللي عندو احساس المحترم الرائع سامي يوسف كان عامل حفلة كبيرة طبعا بالتعاون مع جهات أخرى و الحفلة بروح ريعها لضحايا دارفور و كل الفنانين اللي بحبهم هناك. فا الرابعي “samolinjo”  كان عامل جو من الحزن عشان من سابع المستحيلات انروح على بريطانيا و من سابع المستحيلات انهم هما يجوا على فرنسا و الأردن و جدة و أكيد غزة el Dreadful.
على الرغم من تافهة الموضوع بس و الله يوم الأحد كنت في غاية الحزن و لما صحباتي اللي في بريطانيا حكولي مين قابلوا كان و انو الحفلة كانت رائعة…حسرات…
هاي يمكن كانت اكتر حاجة غير ضرورية صادفتها في حياتي…و بس يعطيكو العافية….
The English edition is coming out tomorrow In Sha Allah
 
  

EID and EID

Salamz all,OMG,It’s EID yesterday I mean before a month was Ramadan,I’m already missing it :’(
but anyway we gotta move on.You may now think that I’ll be saying Damn EID sucks!!
NO IT”S NOT Alhamdolilah I love it,I don’t know why but Gaza turns into another G
aza when it’s Eid,maybe what I’m saying coming from knowing that some of the poor of people is spending good time,HOW DO I KNOW?? my dad is the chief of Gaza city Zaka society  they basically distribute and collect money and give it to the people who deserve it.At the night of the 28th of Ramadan me and my mom and dad spent maybe an hour and a half talking about “The poverty in Gaza”,well it widely spread no doubt unemployment is all over,no jobs especially after Hamas taking over Gaza.Gaza is like the following:”nothing comes out…nothing comes in” even in the money thing,Dad told us the last year transferring money was easier.and they could collect the society’s budget but this year there’s shortage.Anyways this year the shops were somehow empty of goods,especially clothes.My cousins wife said :”The sell-man in a store swore me that they were  selling goods were stored since seven YEARSS!!”. But on Thursday me and my friend went to “The Remal market” Gaza’s main market and it’s somehow crowded even it was like 3:30 pm before an hour and half of breaking the fasting :S
Back to the poor despite the shortage of finance my dad told me that they could give a good number of families money to buy new clothes and food.Alhamdolilah!

Back to EID today I woke up at 7 am sure thing I was like YAY Eid and went to the window to view kids in the streets playing but they were coming from the Eid prayer.Especially that Ismial Haniya was leading one in Palestine stadium which is close to us.then we went to a restaurant called “Al Deira” for lunch my mum promised us she would invite us to go out at the 1st day of Eid..my brother and his wife and little Deyala came we had fun Alhamdolilah!! Then we visited our aunt then came back to watch the HIT SHOW,GAZA’S talk!! “Bab el Harra” everybody loves that show in Gaza I like it because we all gather to watch it and talk like Syrians (yeb3atli 7emma ya 7a2!!,mesh ana).I hope you (the people who read this post) is spending good time,Eid is about being happy because you are now clean from sins In SHa Allah that’s the real thing,and in every Eid I remember Iraq and I only say “May Allah help them” :’(
Have fun people,visit your family and try to make this Eid one of your best!!!!

السماء من نافذتي The sky from my window

Happy Birthday SOHAA!

Salamz all,

This post is out of Gaza.Today is Sohas birthday,she’s one of my best friends,she doesn’t live here Gaza.I got to know her through Outlandish msn group and since then we are best friends though I’ve not seen her face to face but she’s like a sister to me….
Soha lives in Egypt,and another sister  lives in Morocco Eman also got to know her from the Outlandish msn group.Me,Soha and Eman are all in the almost in the same age (though i’m youngest).Eman is 19 and today is Soha and ان شاء الله me in November.Anyways before 2 day ago me and eman were talking in same conversation I asked Soha what did she want for her birthday like gifts??? She said a wish then by the end of the conversation we had a very long list of gifts.Me and Eman came up with an idea that made Soha gifts almost came true in this video…..

We love u,Sooooosooooo

يوم حافل

السلام عليكم

يوم حافل بكل معنى الكلمة,و مسلي أيضا…أول شىء ذهبنا أنا و صديقتي العزيزة هدى على ندوة دينية تعطيعها الدكتورة أروى.كانت واحدة من أجمل ما سمعت من الندوات تحدثت فيها عن “حب الله سبحانه و تعالى لنا”و كيف نستدل عن مدى محبتنا له كانت الندوة جميلة و مؤثرة,و من بعد الانتهاء من الندوة ذهبنا أنا و هدى للسوق و انا اشتريت شيلات بعني “اشربات” أخضر و برتقالي (التفصيل الملل) و بعد ذلك ذهبت الى منزلها و بعد ذلك الى منزلي (ادفع يا هشام تاكاسي) المهم بمجرد وصولي للمنزل كان على الاستعداد للذهاب الى “عزومة عائلة الشريف” السنوية القصة وراء هذه العزومة ان سيدات عائلتي الرائعة و أيضا أنا لا  يريدوا ان يعزموا 30 شخص في منازلهم لانه هذا يعني:
1-جلي لا يوم الجلي و بما انه انا فتاة فسوف اتولى جزء كبير جدا منه
2- البيت غير يتوسخ هدول 30 سخص و نصهم أطفال ما شاء الله
3-مين بدو يطبخ لل30 سخص الكريمين يعني سيدات العائلة كبار في السن الله يطول في أعمارهم
لذلك “بابا” قال نقترح على اعمامي و عماتي نروح انسويها في مطعم أكل طيب و ما في وسخ بيوت و الأهم ما في جلي!
و بالفعل تم التنسيق و اليوم كانت العزومة و الكل شاف بعضو و الكل أكل و انبسط..الحمدلله
في العزومة مع اني بحب عائلتي كتير بس كتير متشائمين اوك الواحد بعرف انه الوضع بقرف و الناس تعبانة بس هينا عاملين عزومة كبيرة و ليش النكد؟ حديث الكهربا و المياه لسا متداول بين العيلة الكريمة و لسا عنا ميا و كهربا..الله يدمها علينا..
بس و الله بنت خالتي خطيبها في كندا و بدها اتسافرلوا بس للأسف معبر رفح امسكر و معبر العوجا ما طلع اسمها و التصاريح ممنوعة لاشعارأخرمع انه انا بحب بنت خالتي كيتر و نفسي اضلها دايمن في غزة بس و الله صرت ادعيلها تطلع من غزة اليوم قبل بكرة لانها كتير مدايقة…و الواحد ما بهون عليه في اللي بحبهم..الله يفك اسرك يا دليلة!
بعد قصة دليلة في اشي ضايل احكيلكم عنو بنت أخوى “ديالا” أحلى طفلة في عيلة الشريف ما شاء الله..سبحان الله عمري ما اتخيلت اني ححبها كل هدا يمكن عشان لما اتشوفني انا بالذات بيصير تضحك..ما أحلى دلول!

الله يعطيكم العافية ازا قرأتو البوست كلو..انا بدي أروح أصلي التروايح دعواتكم! السلام عليكم

Yesterday was a full day,1^st of all me and my best friend “Huda” went to a weekly religious lecture given by a very intelligent DR. called DR.Arwa may Allah bless her.
It was one of the best lectures I’ve ever heard from her talking about “the relationship between Allah (SWT) and us the servants, she said that’s all about love, how much Allah loves us and how to know if we love Allah enough or not. It was very touching and beautiful. After we had the lecture me and Huda went  Gaza’s central market “Al Remal” I bought 2 scarves (green and orange).As soon as arrived home I’d to get ready for The Sharifs Annual Ramadan Feast. The story behind this feast is the following my father suggested my uncles and aunts to make the Ramadan’s feast in a restaurant and everyone will pay. Well indeed they all agreed and yesterday was the big feast. The reason that  my dad came up with this idea that if you invite about 30 persons over everyone’s house that will cause many things that are tiring such as:
1-Washing,washing and washing and I would have taken the biggest part of it.
2-The houses would have got dirty, who wants to clean in Ramadan everyone is tired.
3-Who would cook for 30 persons? Our family’s ladies  are kind old they will get tired. (May Allah bless them all).
Although I really HEART (you word lalla mona) but they are so pessimistic.
We know that the situation is horrible and people are really is a awful situation to. But thank Allah people here we go a nice feast everyone saw  the other and we had fun.  And “The electricity and the water being cut” talks are still going…we still have them Alhamdolilah!
But I still have to talk to you about my dear cousin, her fiancé is Canada and she wants to go outside Gaza to meet him so BAD, but Rafah’s terminal is closed, other one Al Ojah her name didn’t get picked ,and all the  permits to go to the west bank are being stopped for now. Though I love my cousin and I’d like her to stay here with us in Gaza but not anymore I wish she gets out of here as long as possible because It’s hard for me to see her always depressed. :’(   Pray for Dalila!
After Dalila’s story, one thing left to talk to you…MY LITTLE ANGEL (niece) DIALAAAAAA! Never though I’d love her that much, maybe because when she looks at my face she smiles. how lovely Diala MashaAllah!

That’s it, Salamz people!

رمضان مبارك

السلام عليكم,

نعم أول بوست لي بالعربية,لا أعلم لماذا اخترت العربية عل الرغم من سيئة جدا في التعبير عن نفسي بالعربية و هو شىء لست فخورة به على الاطلاق! المهم رمضان هذا السنة له وضع خاص(دائما هناك ما يجعله مميز)و لكن هذه السنة هناك هم و هناك نعمة. كيف ذلك؟
نبدأ بالهم,و همي هو حماس و فتح,لا أعرف هل أدعو لهم بالهداية و هل أدعو لهم بان تنشق الأرض و تبتلعهم و تخلصنا منهم و من قرفهم,و لكن لانهم “مسلمون” و لأن خدوج سوف تقول لي لا يجوز يا لينة يا رب تهديهم!
نكمل بالنعمة,يقال ان اسرائيل ستقطع الكهرباء عن غزة ابتداء من يوم الأحد و انها سوف تتبرع لنا ب 3 ساعات يوميا..عشان خاطر أبو مازن هههه! أكيد الآن تقولون “ما لها العاهة هاى بتئول عن قطع الكهربا نعمة؟” أقول لكم لماذا سبب بسيط ان هناك الكثير من الناس تستغل رمضان لمشاهدة المسلسلات بدلا من عمل شىء مفيد…و هذا شىء برأي هبل شديد!
و نعمة أيضا لأنك سوف تتحدى الظلام و تقرأ القرآن في العمتة و لأنك سوف تفطر على ضوء الشموع..و هذا كله شديد و لكن ثوابه كبير..لتعمل اسرائيل ما تعمله فينا أنا لا أهتم و أتمنى ان لا أحد من الشعب يهتم لأنه في النهاية نحن أرض الرباط و الحياة ليست عبارة عن رفاهية و سعادة و راحة الحياة تعب حتى ترتاح في الاخرة.
هذا كل شىء لدى…اتمنى ان أكون وصلت فكرتي بشكل جيد..على الرغم ممن انني كتبت شعوري بالعربية…
مباشرة من غزة أحلى رمضان كريم لخدوج و للالا منى و الجميع!
سلام عليكم
Transalation(Exclusive for Sam)
Yeah! It’s my 1^st post in Arabic, I don’t know why I’ve chosen to express my feelings in Arabic though I’m very bad at it which is something I ain’t proud of.
Anyways, This year Ramdan is really special (it’s always special) but this year it’s VERY special…because this year there’s bad news good once…how’s so?
We start with the  BAD NEWS…Hamas and Fatih don’t know whether to pray that Allah guide them…or to destroy them, but Khadooj will say “Lina,that’s bad” so I will say “May Allah guide them” plus they still called “MUSLIMS”
Now the good news, it’s said that starting from Sunday Israel will cut off the electricity  on Gaza and will provide us with it only 3 hours a day…so now I guess you are confuse saying “What’s wrong with that stupid girl, says about cutting off the electricity  is a bless?” well some stupid people spend Ramadan in front of TV watching Drama well PPL GET BUSY WITH SOMETHING USEFUL! Plus when there’s no power you’ll have to challenge yourself to read Quran using candles and break you fast in the darkness and that’s tough but it comes with Thawab from Allah..so I don’t give a damn about what Isreal is going to do and I hope the Palestinian people do the same, because basically we are a Land of Al Rebat  and in general life is not about luxury, happiness and relaxation, Get tired in Life so you rest forever In Sha’a Allah…
That’s it..
Live from Gaza wished the coolest Ramadan to Khadooj and Lalla mona And All!!!

1st day of University

Salamz all,

it’s been a long time since the last post,anyways yesterday Saturday was my 1st day of University.The Islamic University in Gaza that’s my universities name,it’s one of the best educational institutions in Palestine.Though my brothers and cousins hate it and they told you’ll hate it to,but I said let’s give myself a chance to love it or hate it.I don’t care that much about the strict rules that the Uni obliges because mainly it’s Islamic and their rules sound reasonable to me.I’m doing English literature temporally till they open section “English Journalism” I love English!I really enjoyed my day yesterday it was fun I’d 3 English courses one of them was “Oral communication skills” that one was really good and I guess it’s my favourite.other courses were good to,the “grammar 1″ course teacher is funny and he’s impressive mashaAllah (studied in California UNI and graduated with distinction).The last course I took was “Study skills” the teacher was trained in the US to,she seems nice.The rest of the courses were The history of Palestine and Arabic Library.
Today I had an hour and a half lecture then went home,it was “Studies in Seera” (The life of the Prophet Mohamed peace be upon him).The teacher didn’t leave good impression to me but I’m very interested in the subject itself.
That’s my adventures in the Uni in 2 days.
Take a look on my Uni in the following video:

Some Information about The University:
*It’s not mixed the girls have their own buildings and the boys have theirs, but they are besides.
*Every student in every section has certain number of Islamic subjects, they are from the University requirements (which is sth great) such as “Studies in Al Seera”, 5 parts of Holy Quran in each year you rememorize a part.
*The board of the University and most of the teachers are related to Hamas but there’s not much talks about Politics, but still education shouldn’t be related to any political party.
More pics.
That’s it for today,Salamz!

Gaza By Lens

Salamz all,

As I’ve not been out by car since a long time, I’ve not taken new videos. But I’d an idea to show Gaza in deffirent way,Yeah different way by Photos taken by Palestineremembered.com. The following video is sort of slideshow shows different areas of Gaza, the sea, the old market and Al Jondi al Majhoul park in Gaza city.
Few notes:
1-As I noticed the photos were taken in 2003,that year comparing to 2007 Gaza was much much better than these days.
2-Big ups the photographers Gaza in photos looks way better than reality.
3-Hope that you like the song…I didn’t have another choice…

Smash hit Gazawi Songs

Salamz all,

As Palestinians,especially who live in Gaza know how Hamas and Fatih compete in every thing even in making songs about them.That’s right baby part of the propaganda thing.Kids sing them,teenagers dance on them and adults enjoy them.Now as Hamas rules Gaza people listen to their songs which by the way are really good.As an Islamic party they believe that music is haram to use so they are only percussion but Again they are so exciting talking about:
1-Resistant against Israeli occupation.
2-About Palestine.
3-About their government.
Here a clip of one the most popular songs of Hamas “Hala ya Saqara El Qasam”,”Welcome to the Falcon of El Qasam” sounds stupid I know.This song is about how the Hamas freedom fighters “Al Qasam” are strong and able to get the occupation out of Palestine.

As a Palestinian ashamed of both Hamas and Fatih,I didn’t write this post because I want to promote them or sth it’s just sth IS a fact,it’s not sth I’m proud of but sth you have to talk about if you want to show the truth.
And the smash hit song “Henna Henna Baya’nak ya Abo el Abid” dedicated to the prime minster Esma’eel Haniya” Listen to the song click here.
This song is about one thing SUPPORTING THE PRIME MINSTER.